Last post was a little over a year ago. I had moved to washington to discover a new career in the medical field and run away from my problems. Shortly after, I figured out it was the worst and most impulsive idea I've ever had. Seattle is gorgeous and I wish I could go back but the circumstances in which I went were all wrong. I moved back to Arizona Thursday June 28th. My mom and I were both unemployed but both obtained jobs very quickly. We were great support and spent our free time having sleepovers, drinking wine, and performing water aerobics. Saturday July 7th, I went to a fourth of July pool party were I ran into an old flame. We hit it off as if we never were apart. Mind you, we didn't date very long a year prior because of my poor judgement.
I worked at Carrabbas Italian grill and then soon after got a medical assistant job as well. Working 2 jobs and dating mike was a huge load but I stuck it out. I ended up appreciating him and my decision makings in working things out when I was crunched for time.
March 7th I got baptized as a christian. I've always been a Christian, but I've never had enough courage to be baptized. Not even a few days later, I found out mike and I were "expecting". I found out early morning before work but didn't tell mike until that night. He took the news as well as I had hoped with some nervousness but mostly excitement. After we discuss the decision of keeping it, of course, he immediately told me his mom would want us to move to Chicagoland where they had recently moved to. May 3rd 2013, we left to start a new family in Batavia. Arriving on the 5th of may I was finally introduced to his mom Myrna, his sister Jen, and his sisters two sons Sam and Jackson. All living together I can't complain to much. I live in a house rent free. I transferred to Carrabbas and obtained a second medical assistant job, in which I hate. There is nothing I can really complain about but yet, I feel something is missing. Mike has yet to find a job. It's been almost 3 months now and I have two! Mike was raised with money, and has some sort of arrogants about him and the type of job he's expecting. Reality is, he has little experience, no drive, and way to high of expectations.
My life has been great with him, but lately we haven't been so close. It might be the stress of expecting, finally living with each other, or even movie out of state. I'll write when I have this answer resolved. For now, I'll just pray about it.
