pregnancy hormones don't mix with sport enthused men

Today I signed up for birthing classes. Theses classes take place October 19th from 8:30-4pm. incidentally, the ASU Sun Devils happen to be playing that day. This would be my boyfriends college football team. Because my boyfriends life revolves around sports instead of more important things like, a new arrival of an infant, he expects me to reschedule this class even though it works best with my schedule for work. Men who loves sports are great and dandy, I love watching it myself sometimes, but men who can't record the game and watch it later that night after they attend a birthing class for their spouse and new arrival is a self-absorbed A$%hole. My beloved dog does a better job at making me feel important. (pregnancy hormones)
Thanks for reading :)

Chicago

Last post was a little over a year ago. I had moved to washington to discover a new career in the medical field and run away from my problems. Shortly after, I figured out it was the worst and most impulsive idea I've ever had. Seattle is gorgeous and I wish I could go back but the circumstances in which I went were all wrong. I moved back to Arizona Thursday June 28th. My mom and I were both unemployed but both obtained jobs very quickly. We were great support and spent our free time having sleepovers, drinking wine, and performing water aerobics. Saturday July 7th, I went to a fourth of July pool party were I ran into an old flame. We hit it off as if we never were apart. Mind you, we didn't date very long a year prior because of my poor judgement.
I worked at Carrabbas Italian grill and then soon after got a medical assistant job as well. Working 2 jobs and dating mike was a huge load but I stuck it out. I ended up appreciating him and my decision makings in working things out when I was crunched for time.
March 7th I got baptized as a christian. I've always been a Christian, but I've never had enough courage to be baptized. Not even a few days later, I found out mike and I were "expecting". I found out early morning before work but didn't tell mike until that night. He took the news as well as I had hoped with some nervousness but mostly excitement. After we discuss the decision of keeping it, of course, he immediately told me his mom would want us to move to Chicagoland where they had recently moved to. May 3rd 2013, we left to start a new family in Batavia. Arriving on the 5th of may I was finally introduced to his mom Myrna, his sister Jen, and his sisters two sons Sam and Jackson. All living together I can't complain to much. I live in a house rent free. I transferred to Carrabbas and obtained a second medical assistant job, in which I hate. There is nothing I can really complain about but yet, I feel something is missing. Mike has yet to find a job. It's been almost 3 months now and I have two! Mike was raised with money, and has some sort of arrogants about him and the type of job he's expecting. Reality is, he has little experience, no drive, and way to high of expectations. 
My life has been great with him, but lately we haven't been so close. It might be the stress of expecting, finally living with each other, or even movie out of state. I'll write when I have this answer resolved. For now, I'll just pray about it.

MA experience and fled to WA

I became a medical assistant. I obtained a job may/2011 at Central Arizona Heart Specialists. Let me just say that besides surgeons, cardiologists are the closest thing to god complex as you can get, or so they think. Dr. Nahel Farraj called me dyslexic and I always thought he was so handsome. I really dislike him. Dr. Robert Hamburg, Dr. Roger Bies, Dr. Rizhaldy Villegas, and Dr. Suntharo Ly are amazing men. I miss shelly, my co-worker that I was living with for 1 week. She recently was going through a divorce. 

I finally moved back with Gil and march/2012 I started working for Simonmed Imaging as an MRI tech assistant. If you're reading this, do not go to Simonmed for any imaging diagnosis testing. They are all about money and they are rude. Go to pdi or evdi.

I got fired from simonmed for "memory problems". I don't have memory problems, I was working 3-13hr shifts without a damn lunch break. Of course I was being forgetful?? I left work before the sun got up and arrived home at night without food. Right-to-work states suck.

So after this I fled to Washington May 4th 2012. I was living in Maple Valley Washington with my moms old childhood friend. My friend Michele was traveling with me there and had a flight back home. I ended up getting a speeding ticket in oregon on I-5 on the way there. Once I arrived I started job searching with hardly any luck. I met an amazing guy named Jeremy, where we spent a whole weekend in Seattle. He went back to Boston and I found out he was still living with his ex. Whatever. I had $160.00 with my speeding ticket in an envelope with a money order and it was stolen from me. I'm almost positive it was my moms friend lori because she's a psychotic pill popper. She blames it on her son, when she was the only one that knew where I put my money. I freaked out and had to take anxiety meds that made me almost unfunctionable. I had to move and ended up finding my gparents.

I was not even living with my gparents for 1 weeks when my grandma and I got in a huge blowout fight with them that was far over-due re: family issues and my father being abusive and my sister being abused. I screamed at them and cried trying to tell them what happened and they never knew. Somehow my grandma wasn't affected by it. She doesn't care because her sons are "fucking perfect". whatever

I moved back to az june 13th 2012. Just got a job serving at Carrabbas as long as I pass the serving test. We'll see how life goes from here.

I can't believe i've kepted this blog for 6 years! Truly Epic reading all my old postings about my bs life in jr. high and high school. haha

brazos xxxxxxxxxxxx

Whatever I do, whoever i'm with, where ever I am, I have a huge taste of dissatisfaction. My Dx is; Chronic Dissatisfaction.

school....aaaaa school. i graduate in November. then off to more school. 12 years to be exact. not much has gone on in my life besides the fact that i'm still talking to costas, he is now moving to the us for me. i took a personality test, and apparently i have obsessive compulsive personality disorder.. oh geebeez i do not think one person on the face of this earth cannot be diagnoses with some kind of stupid thing that they probably didn't need to know anyways unless it was hazardous to their health. Now being educated in the health care field, it's so sad honestly. my strong advice to anyone who reads this. DO NOT BE SUCKED IN BY DIAGNOSIS AND PRESCRIPTION MEDICINES UNLESS YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. diabetes? who gives a fuck! i bet i have it right now and i will never know unless i go to a doctor and they tell me...because it doesn't really affect my life that much...survive with what you have and only consume what you need.

well it's been a while since the last time i've posted my new life stories. as i've been seperated from alex, I made alot of new friends. I go out alot. I'm almost done with pima med school. I feel like i'm going somewhere. I met a new guy. not face to face. but on facebook. His name is Costas Agalou. we've talked for a few months now. He was born in Greece but is currently living in London and has invited me to live with him. It sounds like a great opportunity. Early on I grew feelings for him..but now, I believe I love him. I talk to him on skype almost every day since we've "met." he is wonderful. And I love his accent. it's sad that I won't see him until December..therefore he won't be my boyfriend until December as well. I'm going to spend my summer and fall working my butt off at work to get the money to go. Costas will never find this but if he does, Costantinos Agalou, I LOVE YOU

moving

Today i moved most of my stuff into my new condo with my mom. My sister and I are watching sleeping beauty and just talking about life. This "secret kid" won't text me back. But he will, infact, write me back on facebook's i.m. I honestly don't understand. I met a kid named mike at a pool party on Tuesday. He definately showed interest in me because he got my number from my sister. Then the next day, met me at startbucks and pissed off his friends because he stayed there with me to long, when he was suppose to be driving to mexico!
Let's talk about Clayton. My mormon boy. he's amazing, sweet, and endearing. He's in Florida right now and does not get back until sunday. I miss him so much. He's going to prom with another girl, just as friends, but it really does suck because i have nobody to go with and it's my senior year! :( because i was engaged during most of my senior year i never really had any guys i talked to. i have only two months to hurry up and find someone! wish me luck!